Is not SPM yet but there's stress already??

It's only early year's exam and i feel so unready. Exam is starting on the 29 Feb that is only next week while my tuition starts on March. I feel so stressed up coz im scared that what if i fail? Maybe the start will not be good but hopefully the SPM trial that is before SPM will be ok as i so don't wanna go for Khidmat Negara shit..

As for family? Well, i know mama is with me but not always beside me like she used to be..like whenever i need her, i'll just be calling "Ma..." and she will be coming. Our expenses is running low as it seems that from my mum's side of story that daddy is a bit kinda hard to take out money for my tuition expenses. If it was me, i will be taking a lot of subjects to pass my exams. 4 creadits will be enough. Now im only taking Science, Maths, Accounts and soon Art tuition. All together is RM250. But that is only tuition.

We still haven't count my daily expenses.. Since now im staying at Kota Damansara, it will be hard for me to go home and mama is working. I have to take care of myself now. I feel like i don't have anyone to be with since now Alif is working at one utama. So ALONE! It's always like this,after school, i'll be going to Alif's house and eat there then i'll be doing my homework,then i'll take a nap then by 6 or 7 i'll be going to uptown. But that was when Alif was around. Now, im not sure where to go to.. Feel so lost weyh..

Im so stressed up with my daily expenses, my family, my exams... Everything.. It feels like everything is so wrong..

Early Year's stress!

Well...mumy and daddy divorce already.. With many thing going on that i am so freaking lazy to explain. Straight to the point, my family wants them to argue la. Daddy came bak 4 a while and i got pist off with that f**cking Emily Bitch. You know,she can always take my father and hug n squeeze the shit out of him at Sabah but when he is here spending time with me, she just thinks its her time as well... Tak cukup ke for how many months she took my dad away from me and to me there's n support from my dad; only from my mum..

We now moved to Kota Damansara. Full of Edy's friend here... ergh... Baybee balik kampung... baboon tul... i changed my stream in school as i can't stand with add maths..

so i change to arts...which is much better and i enjoy it...especially the time we tried to use charcoal...i went CRAZY with it till i feel like stealing one! Lol..

that's the recent news for me... at the moment of my days feel so blank.. so not much news and since there's internet at home..i hardly online...