What is wrong with me??

I didn’t go to school today coz I woke up late again. I really dunno wats wrong with me for the past few days as I also didn’t go to school yesterday. I feel so pressured and stress but the thing is I really don’t know about what. I had a fight with mum yesterday and today of me not going school ; but I do know it was my fault again and again.
I woke up at 6.45 yesterday and I just knew that I couldn’t make it to school. So mum screwed me up and sed promise to wake up 2moro. I nodded. Last nite, B and his bro, Sharul slept over at my house. We watch a few DVD’S before going to bed but I slept earlier from them coz I know I had to go to school. But the thing is I think I was too tired and I didn’t wake up this morning. Worst part was I woke up at 6.55. Mum at first didn’t say anything but she had a sharp stare at me though. So after I showered, I open her door slowly and there she was ironing her clothes and of course.. it was so obvious she was pist off with me coz she scolded me. She said that I was the problem of waking up in the morning and she won’t bother anymore about waking me up in the morning to go school and she said you think for yourself.

I mean whats wrong with me?? Everything I do will always be a mistake. Maybe it was a mistake that I live on earth! Look at my life.. Its full of emotions! It started out I ran away from home, I tried to commit suicide, my parents divorced, im not talking to my family on my fathers side, and I feel so stressed that I have to face my SPM soon!
I really hope I change for the best.. So far,I don’t know whether am I going up to the sky or im still under dirt.

I just want to meet my Daddy

Wan is going to Sabah 2moro and i didnt get the chance to explain to her that i really wanted to go and meet my daddy.. Just because of my exams, she screwed me and told me not to go.

Coz on dat day,daddy koled me and sed that Wan is going to Sabah n been thinking to take me along. It was fine with me since next week is a one week holiday. I koled wan and asked her what day is she going..and she said Wednesday. I didnt know which Wednesday but it was fine with me. I said that i agreed to go with her but if im going on Wednesday,i have to come back on Friday or Saturday coz my trials is on.

She freaked out and said you want to go on Wednesday and come back on Friday or Saturday?! Banyak duit ko! You think what? Flight ticket is cheap izzit??!!

I explained to her saying that she had to understand my situation as my trials is on and i have to do well but before the trials i do want to see my daddy.

She sed it will waste her money to pay for me if im only going for 3 or 4 days. But its weird... she sed its wasting money.. I think she wasted RM 3000 just for a freaking CARPET! She told me off and said you dont have to go. Just go to school and do your exams. Maybe you can just go during the November holidays.

WTF??!!

Its been how many months i havent meet my half soul...,my half DNA!!and she had the nerves to tell me to go and see my daddy on November?! That wont happen coz my SPM is on November till December! As i said.. She only thinks about herself..

I JUST WANT TO MEET MY DADDY..