I have learnt a lot of things recently. And seriously i have regret. I learnt that i might as well keep it to myself or just ignore it and not take it seriously instead of posting on the net. It have ruined my relationship which i SERIOUSLY don't know how to gain back his love, i lost trust from friends which i care about and most of all, I have ruined the relationship between me and my family which i love and i don't know how to gain back their trust.
At one moment, i felt useless, hopeless, no doubt speechless, jobless and cashless. And whatever 'less' there is! I felt lonely. I felt like i lost everyone i loved one by one. I lost my future husband's love, and i'm trying my best to get it back even i know that he still loves me but not like before. I lost a mother's love.. Which i really miss. Which to me, i need that everyday. I felt like i lost my best friend. I lost the people that i could talk to. I felt like killing myself!
In the end, a few friends that is still left, decided to have a table talk with me and make me realize what i have been doing. And i totally broke down in tears. Wish i could turn back the time. I've been a BITCH!
Enough said.
