From the post of 'Was it true', i got to found out that it was true. It hurt me alot till i had a breakdown and it broked my heart. I felt ashamed that someone could do something like that to me. I found out from Syafiq's friend Asriq. I chatted with him onYM and i just remembered and thought of a stupid question. The video.
I asked and he was like how did you know? I called him straight away and wanted to know more details. What he told me, hurt me. He told me that syafiq was a playboy and i still remembered Asriq said "Sape yang tak nak balak dia anak dato'? Confirm semua nak. So dia main-mainkan la gurls ni" In my mind, i don't want to believe you! It's hurting me! Enough! But somehow a little few more details he told me was how it was and it was true.
After that i called Syafiq and screwd him up saying how could you? That just make a thousand and one tears! I loved you, I was so happy with you even if we had fights and arguements. I wanted to know your family and friends. Because my family and friends got to know bout you. And all of them said Just be careful. I appreciated everything you did for me. Like coming to Damansara and meet me once or twice a week, taking me out for a walk and around town. I just had so much fun.
I still remember that we will be singing in the car. Each and every car of yours have a memories of us. I still remember you were like singing an old song to me and all the song lyrics was loving you. And our theme song would be from Taylor Swift, Love Story. Your favourite song was from Gym Class Heroes, Cookie Jar. And my song would be Katy Perry, Thinking of you. And you wanted to hug me in the car but i didnt want to as i was busy listening to Jonas Brothers, Lovebug.
Everything i do reminds me of you and hurt me badly deep down in my heart. Everytime i past by the lakeside near Curve reminds me of you cause that was the last place we went and spent time together. So does Rasta, you wanted to watch football. At the lakeside i still remember that you were chasing me as i was running away from you, it was like a princess love story. We watched the sunset together and we were planning to go to Port Dickson just to watch the sunset as I love going to the beach. We were blowing our minds thinking where can we find a hill that we can actually see the stars, the moon, and the whole city.
You were the first one that can carry me like when im running to you and you catch and carry me and while that you were swinging me. It was what i always wanted from a guy. And you did it. That's why i loved you. I also do remember when i called you after i did a 50 minutes Super Saver and i got sleepy. And you were listening to me when i was sleeping. I thought it was a dream when you said I love you Mak cik Bun. Instead of we saying i love you, our type was I cinta you. Everytime i see the stars, i will always think back of the SMS you sent me saying I love all the stars in the sky, but they are nothing compared to the ones in your eyes.
Im missing you.
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