I realised that it has been a month i broke up with Alif. I do miss him badly and i still do love him but i just can't accept him after what he did to me. I know i have cheated on him twice,maybe this was his revenge or something. But to me he was the only one.
Somehow another person showed up into the picture and he was an old friend of mine, Mohd Syafiq. He will try to do anything just to make me happy, and i want to thank him. He is currentlly studying so he is kinda busy with his classes. But he will make the effort to meet me.
Its really wierd coz there he is ready to take me along with him for a new journey but still i want to just stay put where i am now and think back of my problems and the sadness of what Alif did. Maybe i still love him? But i can get better than him and its already infront of me.
Everywhere i look will make me remind of Alif. And everytime i insist hanging lepaking at Uptown just by myself. And i dunno since when i can just sit at the table by myself. But i feel more comfortable as i needed time alone to just day dreaming all the way long thinking back of the memories of me and Alif and thinking i do love him but why can't i accept him back? Also if i be with Syafiq,i know he will make me happy but what about the times that i feel lonely as he will be busy with classes?
Why am I still unhappy??
1 comment:
babe.. lelaki muke cam tue, u tk yah nak sedih sgt la..
u can get 10 guys better looking than that anytime (:
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